Ok so for as long as I can remember I’ve been really turned on when a girl catches me masturbating . Of coarse I set it up so that they caught me. The reaction I would get was across the board. Some would look mad and others would look and and like it which is what I like. I don’t want to piss anyone off and definitely don’t want to scare anyone. I don’t know why I’m into this or why I started. I feel a sense of intimacy when I’m being watched even for the moment. After I cum I can feel guilty about it if I receive a negative reaction. I talked with a therapist I was seeing and as was telling her I was getting harder and harder. She had to answer the phone and left the room. I started jerking off but came before she was back. IDK , I wish I could just ask random girls if they would watch me. The shock factor of them catching me is plus being in my car windows down, doing it outside in general feels good. With or without a partner. I sent a video of me to a good friend who I’ve known for 30 years. We were texting about stuff and she sent me a picture of her and she looked really good so I filmed myself and sent it. She freaked out so I said I didn’t mean to send it to her it was meant for someone else I was texting with . And I also fantasize they like what they see and give me a hand and then have sex. What’s wrong with me? Just talking about it and I’m ready